Back in the funk

I have always telling friends, or just anybody whom I am comfortable with, how complex my life is. What I should be telling them actually, is how I want my life to be or appear to be complex. Once a friend's response made me realize how quite simple life is, specially mine. It is all about choice: decide and move on. She is a smart one!
In many cases I am unable to decide, I'll put my self in a funk. Bewildering thoughts and feelings took over, and I am not the nicest person to be around with. Realizing this I tend to hide in my shel, till the funk is over.

Planned Projects

We all have so many projects planned in our live span. Some we pursued whole hearted some hmm, when we feel like it. I have about 8 of them running and 20 more being conceived in my head. I am not worry about the 8, I am worry about the 20 or more as they are distracting the proggress of the 8....

Deep Breath

I took a deep breath and sit down.
When many things happens around you, in their own tempos, slow, fast, in blurs. Things look the same before they suddenly disappeared. While you are moving fast, furious, things seem to stop, idling, but not waiting, nor caching up with you. When you stop and look back, see them racing away, sure you are to turn and chase. You see, mistakes, regrets and miss opportunities, walking hand in hands into your door of forgotten memories.
You see new friends you don't make, enemy with a knive, bloodied to the hilt. You caress the scar in your back, and another deep breath, stand to start again. Settling into the comfortable blurs, which sure to surround you in no time.

Rusty at first day of summer

Haven't done a blog in a while. A bit rusty. Have to go trough FTP site to find all the links. I am thinking of adding this feature to my work staging.
Well today is the first day of summer. It is glorious outside. Some people think Fall and Spring are the best time to be in NY, I think its Summer!
Hot and humid and bright, just the way I love it.

Swordfish

I spent some time looking at swoordfish hacking game, have no clue what so ever on what is going on. Funny though, how some people take this as serious fun, check out the messag board. I heard there is even better and much global gameplay for A.I.

Short Term Memory

Well, still up. Finished couple of pages, after strugling to recal my login. Have started doubting my short term memory a while back, even more nowadays. I should sleep more during weekdays. Naps on transit just don't cut it anymore?

Little Sleep

I always tell people how I only need very little sleep. I stayed up all night most times, doing cats know what. It's only an hour after midnight and I am fading fast. I should have smaller dinner.

First Post

opening up. Wondering what other neat stuff I can find on the web. I actually have so many other things to do. Things that are more important, always saved to be done later. Near the end of the much needed time. I like rushing, I like slowing down just so I can rush or be rushed.